Like the title says - this is gonna be fast and furious. I am moving tomorrow, which is to say I get the keys to the new place, though I am not quite sure I'm going to be sleeping there tomorrow night. Actually, considering I still need to get a bed and a shower curtain, I'm thinking spending the night there, not so much on ye olde agenda. But, we'll see.
Turns out after being bored to tears, tomorrow I have more invitations than I know what to do with. Bloody hell. Hate it when that happens.
Ehren, you had best be showing up...hang over or no hang over!
I think I scared the crap out of Leila tonight...I went to my "dark" place. 'Cept it wasn't that dark, which is good in the sense that I got out before I was too far in, but bad in the sense that I think Leila got scared too quickly...I wonder how she's gonna react when I really melt down one of these days.
Leila - thanks for talking to me tho. It's precisely what I needed to keep myself in check. I'm much better now, I swear. We'll talk more about it later - just know you handled it the right way.
Ok, so I'm gonna be not so much on IM until August 4th when the internet/cable/phone services are hooked up. So if y'all want to talk, use the bloody phone! :)
Much love to all, and to all a good night.
Friday, July 30, 2004
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Alrighty then....
 | My sphere is Guardian (Person of great Love and Altruism), and my class is Arms Master (Pragmatic and Stout). I am a Guard. You are a true, versatile guard. You have a defensive nature, that is, you are good at instilling a sense of security in the places around you. A strong presence weakens any possible threats around you, and a swift, practical approach to the problems that crop up puts them down before they can get out of hand. |
So basically...this is yet another way of saying "Mommy." Damnit...
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Wistfully Waxing Nostalgic
Just saw "Ocean's Eleven" on TNT tonight. What a spectacular movie...I adore it. What's amusing is that it's a totally romantic film in my mind, something which I don't think many people immediately agree with. Especially when the romance of the film doesn't involve Julia Roberts' scenes at all really.
I guess what really got me is one of the last scenes, by the Bellagio fountain. The scene is beautiful, and if you haven't seen the movie really you should watch it for that one scene if nothing else. Anyway, the piece of music playing in the background is DeBussy's "Clair de lun." It's a fabulous piece and the in conjunction with the fountain it's breathtaking.
The other thing is...that scene reminded me of one of the most romantic moments of my life, thus far at any rate. And the funny thing is that the gentleman in question wasn't even in the same state as I was at the moment. For that matter, he and I didn't even talk...I got a voicemail! He called me from a vacation in Las Vegas, from the Bellagio fountain and was talking to me watching the light show. It was...wonderful. That he was thinking of me while watching this fantastic light show. If men knew how easily women are impressed with stuff like that...there would be many more happy girlfriends!
It probably helps that on an early date we sat and listened to Romantic Piano Classics ~ including Clair de lun, and as a result that piece is always associated with warm fuzzies.
Ah, warm fuzzies. How I missed thee.
Also in the warm fuzzies catagory, had a rather nice moment today. Roomie called to relay the following sitch. Was mentioning me in passing at a party/picnic thing - discussing our fabulous new apartment, etc. And he mentioned me by name - one of his friends responded with something to the effect of "what a beautiful name! Sounds like the name of flowers...I'd like to walk into a florist and say I wanted a dozen of those!"
A short and not particularly scintillating anecdote...but put a smile on my face no less.
Back to listening to Romantic Piano Classics. Sleep sweet all.
I guess what really got me is one of the last scenes, by the Bellagio fountain. The scene is beautiful, and if you haven't seen the movie really you should watch it for that one scene if nothing else. Anyway, the piece of music playing in the background is DeBussy's "Clair de lun." It's a fabulous piece and the in conjunction with the fountain it's breathtaking.
The other thing is...that scene reminded me of one of the most romantic moments of my life, thus far at any rate. And the funny thing is that the gentleman in question wasn't even in the same state as I was at the moment. For that matter, he and I didn't even talk...I got a voicemail! He called me from a vacation in Las Vegas, from the Bellagio fountain and was talking to me watching the light show. It was...wonderful. That he was thinking of me while watching this fantastic light show. If men knew how easily women are impressed with stuff like that...there would be many more happy girlfriends!
It probably helps that on an early date we sat and listened to Romantic Piano Classics ~ including Clair de lun, and as a result that piece is always associated with warm fuzzies.
Ah, warm fuzzies. How I missed thee.
Also in the warm fuzzies catagory, had a rather nice moment today. Roomie called to relay the following sitch. Was mentioning me in passing at a party/picnic thing - discussing our fabulous new apartment, etc. And he mentioned me by name - one of his friends responded with something to the effect of "what a beautiful name! Sounds like the name of flowers...I'd like to walk into a florist and say I wanted a dozen of those!"
A short and not particularly scintillating anecdote...but put a smile on my face no less.
Back to listening to Romantic Piano Classics. Sleep sweet all.
Friday, July 16, 2004
Be Careful What You Wish For -Or- We Are Family
When I was in high school, and even through parts of college, I wanted a big brother. This isn't particularly suprising when you consider I was the oldest, a girl not to mention the oldest girl in a first generation family. Wanting a big brother to look out for me, and to look up to, this was not a surprising wish.
I should have known better.
In the last month I've managed to pick up two pseudo-brothers. One of whom is actually older than me, the other one who just sorta acts it.
And I'm getting the full experience - only less "I'll look out for you" and more "let me antagonize you. A lot."
I didn't need that! I HAVE a little brother - I'm quite familiar with the antagonizing aspects of sibling-hood...
Oy.
I should have known better.
In the last month I've managed to pick up two pseudo-brothers. One of whom is actually older than me, the other one who just sorta acts it.
And I'm getting the full experience - only less "I'll look out for you" and more "let me antagonize you. A lot."
I didn't need that! I HAVE a little brother - I'm quite familiar with the antagonizing aspects of sibling-hood...
Oy.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
This is a test...
Blogger has DEFINATELY changed things up again. You no longer have to manually input the html code, as you can now do keyboard shortcuts... for example:
ctrl + B
ctrl +i
And colors...
All sorts of pretty colors
Best of all? ctrl + S will publish no questions asked...cool...
ctrl + B
ctrl +i
And colors...
All sorts of pretty colors
Best of all? ctrl + S will publish no questions asked...cool...
Monday, July 12, 2004
Emotional Exhaustion
So if you go back and look at Leila's blog (too tired to put the links in, you people do the work) you'll see that she and I had a conversation about lost loves etc a while back. Might have been last week, might have been the week before that. Who knows. Anyway, at the time I thought I had been clear who I was referring too. Not so much apparently. I found this out while discussing American Gods and its awesome ending. Here's the conversation that precipitated it:
Anathema: and if you're anything like me, i'll get a phone call within 5 min of you getting it saying something to the effect of "OH MY GOD! THAT ROCKED!"
Leila: hehe
A: i got that call from him.
L: nice
A: and he finished it weeks after breaking my heart
L: he broke your heart?
A: so if he called under those circumstances...
A: ...
A: oh god.
A: leila...you know he and i dated, right?
L: yes i know
A: and he cheated on me?
A: ok...
L: ah that i didn't know
A: oh boy
A: hang on
A: let me figure out how to short hand this for you
Needless to say a story like that doesn't shorthand...well at all. The result? A VERY VERY LONG story where I ended up digging up some stuff that I had worked good and hard to bury. Deeply. In a safe. Capable of withstanding a blast from anything up to and including a hydrogen bomb.
I am very very very tired. I am very emotional. I haven't been that close to crying in a long time. It was pointed out to me by two different people that crying would be a good thing to do every now and then. I didn't cry. I'm glad I didn't in a way. I shed my tears over this long ago, and frankly I am not all that interested in being a professional victim. Frankly I know people who do that and I find it disgusting. And annoying. And the antithesis of what I strive to do. I would rather make peace with my past, and be aware of it so that I dont relive it.
However, as another dear friend said "and I bet it was good to talk about the things that roughed ya up before. It's good to talk about em sometimes."
Indeed.
Plus, got to talk more with Leila, who I'm finding to be an friend of the best sort - unexpected.
So for now those memories, good, bad and bittersweet are being wrapped back in tissue paper, carefully packed and put in the attic. For a little while at least.
I am to bed. For emotionally drained as I am, I require sleep. So...
Sleeping the sleep of the just. Catch ya on the flip side.
Anathema: and if you're anything like me, i'll get a phone call within 5 min of you getting it saying something to the effect of "OH MY GOD! THAT ROCKED!"
Leila: hehe
A: i got that call from him.
L: nice
A: and he finished it weeks after breaking my heart
L: he broke your heart?
A: so if he called under those circumstances...
A: ...
A: oh god.
A: leila...you know he and i dated, right?
L: yes i know
A: and he cheated on me?
A: ok...
L: ah that i didn't know
A: oh boy
A: hang on
A: let me figure out how to short hand this for you
Needless to say a story like that doesn't shorthand...well at all. The result? A VERY VERY LONG story where I ended up digging up some stuff that I had worked good and hard to bury. Deeply. In a safe. Capable of withstanding a blast from anything up to and including a hydrogen bomb.
I am very very very tired. I am very emotional. I haven't been that close to crying in a long time. It was pointed out to me by two different people that crying would be a good thing to do every now and then. I didn't cry. I'm glad I didn't in a way. I shed my tears over this long ago, and frankly I am not all that interested in being a professional victim. Frankly I know people who do that and I find it disgusting. And annoying. And the antithesis of what I strive to do. I would rather make peace with my past, and be aware of it so that I dont relive it.
However, as another dear friend said "and I bet it was good to talk about the things that roughed ya up before. It's good to talk about em sometimes."
Indeed.
Plus, got to talk more with Leila, who I'm finding to be an friend of the best sort - unexpected.
So for now those memories, good, bad and bittersweet are being wrapped back in tissue paper, carefully packed and put in the attic. For a little while at least.
I am to bed. For emotionally drained as I am, I require sleep. So...
Sleeping the sleep of the just. Catch ya on the flip side.
The Year I Was Born Was A Very Good Year
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In 1980 (the year you were born) |
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Jimmy Carter is president of the US President Carter announces punitive measures and embargos against the USSR in retaliation for the Soviet invasion of Afghanistan Mount St. Helens in Washington state erupts in a violent blast estimated to be 500 times as powerful as the Hiroshima atomic bomb Ronald Reagan is elected the 40th US president in a sweeping victory US Representative Michael O. Myers is expelled from the House for his role in the Abscam scandal Hewlett-Packard announces release of its first personal computer Microsoft announces their version of UNIX, Xenix Christina Ricci, Chelsea Clinton, Venus Williams, Jessica Simpson, Macaulay Culkin, and Jake Gyllenhaal are born Philadelphia Phllies win the World Series Pittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl XIV New York Islanders win the Stanley Cup The Empire Strikes Back is the top grossing film "Lady" by Kenny Rogers spends the most time at the top of the US charts U.S. viewers get caught up in the "Who Shot J.R.?" cliff hanger on the soap opera series, Dallas, which is solved on a November 21 episode, drawing a record numbers of viewers |
For the record? Mt. St. Helens blew it's top hours before I was born. Now that's what I call an entrance!
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Just call me Dr. Moriarty...
Yep. That's just about right. Wouldn't have minded being the double agent...but I think this got it in one.
What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com.
Moral of the story? Don't mess with me people. Just dont.
What Type of Villain are You?
mutedfaith.com.
Moral of the story? Don't mess with me people. Just dont.
I am wowed and happy
The concert tonite...it rocked. I was wowed by the artists in suprising ways. I also discovered that I am living with a seriously strange individual.
So much to tell and I'm exhausted...so we'll try the highlights for the time being.
First of all...hanging out with Leila and G. for the better part of the day...well Leila put it best "G. and I were driving A. up a wall, it was hilarious. Poor abused A., she knows we love her.
For the record Leila? I know no such thing - you two are incredibly lucky I didn't drive the car off a cliff!! Those two...honestly "She took my glasses!" "He's touching me!" It was like I was mommy. To my good friend and my roommate. I wanted to shoot them...oy vey they are nuts! The words "If you two don't stop right now so help me god I will come over there and separate you..." actually left my mouth. And that was while were in the restaurant...before we even got to the concert!
Driving was interesting, as both of them were trying their damndest to keep me well and truly distracted. Making faces...G. it turns out is impossible. He was in the doghouse for a while... and ended up having to pull the "I cook REALLY REALLY well" card to get out of it. Once the 80's music started though...we were all good. G. does an amazingly on target rendition of "Baby Got Back". I was laughing hysterically. And trying to navigate on 691. It was super. We also totally took the long way to get there, but that's an entirely different story.
The concert itself rocked - we ran into Sam, Ben, Ben's gf, Niamh, and Niamh's bf Erik whilst we were there. That was hot. The music was unbelievable.
Guster was guster - they were their usual fun selves...not the best performance of their's that I've seen but it rocked nonetheless. What was cool was that each act had the other two acts come in at least once during their set and perform together. It would have been nice to see all 3 acts perform together on one, but alas, that was not meant to be.
Ben Folds was next...what can I say? Ben does things to the piano that NO ONE should be able to do. He sang a song about his little girl that was just so incredibly sweet. And then he had Rufus come out.
Holy Hell...it was amazing. They did a duet of George Michael's "Careless Whisper." G., Leila, and I were all just sitting there in shock. As Lei put it - "check please". Indeed. The duet was just amazing...I am PRAYING that someone from the guster site taped the show...because I NEED to find that track. I will pay money for that track it was that good. Ehren, if you're reading this...you have no idea what you missed with that one song. If I had only heard that one song I could have gone home happy. AMAZING If anyone out there knows where to get that rendition anywhere PLEASE let me know. PLEASE!!!
Rufus was the finisher. A mistake in some senses I think - I love the man. I really do - but I think in some ways he's better suited to smaller venues. He's more charming there, and it just comes off better in a small club where you can see him and vice versa. The banter didn't work as well in the larger setting. Also, he's much more mellow than the other two - it's a tough way to close. Everyone's a little tired - and mellow doesn't help much. He and Guster sang together on "April Fools" but also on "One Man Boy." The latter? Also just beautiful.
Ok I'm really really exhausted. Oh, as an aside, I have a new address starting the end of the month :) Lot been going on.
Am I back from Hiatus? Um...let's just take it one post at a time shall we?
Night.
So much to tell and I'm exhausted...so we'll try the highlights for the time being.
First of all...hanging out with Leila and G. for the better part of the day...well Leila put it best "G. and I were driving A. up a wall, it was hilarious. Poor abused A., she knows we love her.
For the record Leila? I know no such thing - you two are incredibly lucky I didn't drive the car off a cliff!! Those two...honestly "She took my glasses!" "He's touching me!" It was like I was mommy. To my good friend and my roommate. I wanted to shoot them...oy vey they are nuts! The words "If you two don't stop right now so help me god I will come over there and separate you..." actually left my mouth. And that was while were in the restaurant...before we even got to the concert!
Driving was interesting, as both of them were trying their damndest to keep me well and truly distracted. Making faces...G. it turns out is impossible. He was in the doghouse for a while... and ended up having to pull the "I cook REALLY REALLY well" card to get out of it. Once the 80's music started though...we were all good. G. does an amazingly on target rendition of "Baby Got Back". I was laughing hysterically. And trying to navigate on 691. It was super. We also totally took the long way to get there, but that's an entirely different story.
The concert itself rocked - we ran into Sam, Ben, Ben's gf, Niamh, and Niamh's bf Erik whilst we were there. That was hot. The music was unbelievable.
Guster was guster - they were their usual fun selves...not the best performance of their's that I've seen but it rocked nonetheless. What was cool was that each act had the other two acts come in at least once during their set and perform together. It would have been nice to see all 3 acts perform together on one, but alas, that was not meant to be.
Ben Folds was next...what can I say? Ben does things to the piano that NO ONE should be able to do. He sang a song about his little girl that was just so incredibly sweet. And then he had Rufus come out.
Holy Hell...it was amazing. They did a duet of George Michael's "Careless Whisper." G., Leila, and I were all just sitting there in shock. As Lei put it - "check please". Indeed. The duet was just amazing...I am PRAYING that someone from the guster site taped the show...because I NEED to find that track. I will pay money for that track it was that good. Ehren, if you're reading this...you have no idea what you missed with that one song. If I had only heard that one song I could have gone home happy. AMAZING If anyone out there knows where to get that rendition anywhere PLEASE let me know. PLEASE!!!
Rufus was the finisher. A mistake in some senses I think - I love the man. I really do - but I think in some ways he's better suited to smaller venues. He's more charming there, and it just comes off better in a small club where you can see him and vice versa. The banter didn't work as well in the larger setting. Also, he's much more mellow than the other two - it's a tough way to close. Everyone's a little tired - and mellow doesn't help much. He and Guster sang together on "April Fools" but also on "One Man Boy." The latter? Also just beautiful.
Ok I'm really really exhausted. Oh, as an aside, I have a new address starting the end of the month :) Lot been going on.
Am I back from Hiatus? Um...let's just take it one post at a time shall we?
Night.
Saturday, July 03, 2004
Still on Hiatus...just taking a break for a post
Yes. Still on a blogging hiatus. Just decided to take a quick break due to extreme good mood. Why the good mood? Two words.
Retail.
Therepy.
Yes, my credit card got some solid exercise. A watch, wallet, 2 pairs of shorts, purse, and a bottle of men's cologne (GAP Blue) later, I was happy.
The cologne isn't for me - talked to Ehren and he asked me to pick him up a bottle. Which is fine. But, any serious relationship I enter in with the opposite sex? He must come equipped with GAP Blue, or be willing to wear it.
Because it drives me INSANE. I have no logical explanation for it. It just does.
Happy place. I am in my happy place. Went shopping yesterday (Friday night) with G - saw Leila at work which was fun and happy as well. Realized the new roommate is going to be incredibly easy to shop for - and even more fun to shop with. I have found a new shopping buddy - sweet!
This means things will inevitably get worse - the highs never last. But it's been nice so far, so I'll just go with it for what it's worth.
Night all.
Postscript: blogger is doing something more than a little wacky at the moment...which means that posts aren't posting and getting to a blogger webpage takes refreshing several times. Bloody wacky thing to be happening. If you are able to read this props for your patience! Catch ya on the flip side!
Retail.
Therepy.
Yes, my credit card got some solid exercise. A watch, wallet, 2 pairs of shorts, purse, and a bottle of men's cologne (GAP Blue) later, I was happy.
The cologne isn't for me - talked to Ehren and he asked me to pick him up a bottle. Which is fine. But, any serious relationship I enter in with the opposite sex? He must come equipped with GAP Blue, or be willing to wear it.
Because it drives me INSANE. I have no logical explanation for it. It just does.
Happy place. I am in my happy place. Went shopping yesterday (Friday night) with G - saw Leila at work which was fun and happy as well. Realized the new roommate is going to be incredibly easy to shop for - and even more fun to shop with. I have found a new shopping buddy - sweet!
This means things will inevitably get worse - the highs never last. But it's been nice so far, so I'll just go with it for what it's worth.
Night all.
Postscript: blogger is doing something more than a little wacky at the moment...which means that posts aren't posting and getting to a blogger webpage takes refreshing several times. Bloody wacky thing to be happening. If you are able to read this props for your patience! Catch ya on the flip side!
Thursday, July 01, 2004
ON HIATUS
Neil can do it. So I am to. This blog is officially on hiatus for about a month. I'll be back in mid-August. I might post super erratically in the interim. But for the most part, I'm not here emotionally for at least 4 weeks.
Catch you guys on the flip side.
Catch you guys on the flip side.
Nothing is going on...really...
It's time for another GUILT POST! Yes, I feel bad for not writing anything, mostly because I'm getting some people mentioning the lack of posting...
But I have nothing going on in my life! I am enjoying my summer to the utmost. Watching movies, hanging out with friends and meeting new people. It is all very very dull. The entire month of July is going to be similarly boring. August will be fascinating. But outside of that, ain't nothing happening. I promise you.
*sighs*
I'll try to keep updating with amusing anecdotes, I think I'm just enjoying living my life not just writing about it for a little while. It's summer lethargia. And I am LOVING it. This is the first time in YEARS that I have been able to enjoy summer, instead of running around like a mad woman. Go me!
My best friend is home from Germany for a few days - and then he's coming home for good by the end of the month - just in time to help me move. So excited - I got to see him last night and am going out to lunch with him today. It was super to catch up in person - and realize we've known each other for about a decade. My oldest friend I've known for almost 2 - falling just short at 18 years. Definately getting old.
But here's a secret, shhhhh...I'm a enjoying 24. It's a nice age to be. :)
I'm gonna go get ready for lunch now - but I'll try to post again soon.
But I have nothing going on in my life! I am enjoying my summer to the utmost. Watching movies, hanging out with friends and meeting new people. It is all very very dull. The entire month of July is going to be similarly boring. August will be fascinating. But outside of that, ain't nothing happening. I promise you.
*sighs*
I'll try to keep updating with amusing anecdotes, I think I'm just enjoying living my life not just writing about it for a little while. It's summer lethargia. And I am LOVING it. This is the first time in YEARS that I have been able to enjoy summer, instead of running around like a mad woman. Go me!
My best friend is home from Germany for a few days - and then he's coming home for good by the end of the month - just in time to help me move. So excited - I got to see him last night and am going out to lunch with him today. It was super to catch up in person - and realize we've known each other for about a decade. My oldest friend I've known for almost 2 - falling just short at 18 years. Definately getting old.
But here's a secret, shhhhh...I'm a enjoying 24. It's a nice age to be. :)
I'm gonna go get ready for lunch now - but I'll try to post again soon.