Yup. Recovering from my bout with the cold that the kids gave me. If I ever manage to figure out which one of the kids got me sick, I'm going to be failing that particular child. Seriously. I ended up taking Thursday as a sick day which pissed me off incredibly. I hate taking time off in the middle of the week - it makes me feel all that much more disconnected when I come back to school. Which it did again. And I felt like I was running away. But, it also turned out to be the smartest thing I could have done - 'cause I certainly felt a bit better on Friday when I went back.
Which was good cause I was at school til a little after 5:30 pm. If I get one more person telling me that teacher's have it easy I'm going to attack them with a red pen and the fetal pigs we were dissecting this week. Indeed!
Chilling out at Ehren's for now, going to bake some of the cookies he liked that I made for the department picnic. Yummy!!
Singing in the Rain was on TV tonight. How cool? Can I reiterate that I want, nay, need, a man with the charm and wit of Gene Kelly. And the body of Hugh Jackman. Actually, just a nice mesh of those two men would keep me happy. Very happy. Forever happy.
You get the sense that my thoughts are jumping around faster than the Energizer Bunny on speed? Yeah...go figure.
What else is going on? Had a religious experience today, but not really wanting to talk about it just yet...I will eventually...but for now I need to process what happened.
I find my mind working in a similar way now that it did a couple years ago when I wrote some rather interesting reflections. Except that I'm happier on the surface now than I was then. I'm not sure how deep that happiness runs. Well that's not entirely true - for the most part I know that I'm the happiest I've been lately than I've been in years. But, to some extent that happiness feels a bit like a delusion. I'm not sure why, though it is not out of the realm of possibilities that I'm just not used to feeling ok. I think part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop!
I do know that something is missing right now. I don't know what it is, because the answer I suspect is deeper than the obvious, but something is not right. Something I need in my life isn't here...but I don't even have a notion as to what it is. Is that weird? I don't know.
I guess there really isn't much I can do now, except trust that it will be revealed to me in time. Cause you all just know I'm the world's most patient person. Really now. :)
Ok, time to go bake cookies. Night all!
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