Ok, yes I got bored again so, new template. Then I decided I wasn't a fan of verdana and like Arial better. So I changed it along with a host of minor changes.
And now I'm not sure I like that. So, I've got to decide if the sidebar font is too small, and whether I should just increase the font or switch the sidebar stuff right back to Verdana, leaving the main blog font as Arial.
Eh, too tired to futz with it anymore. If you all have suggestions, I'm listening. Or reading. Whatever.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Monday, November 29, 2004
Because I Haven't Posted Any in Awhile...
You are a Maine Coon! You are larger than life, a
gentle giant. You are independent, but very
affectionate with your friends and family.
What breed of cat are you?
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Huh... ok then. I guess so.
Mint Tea...
You are Mint Tea!
Naturally sweet you have a happy-go-lucky attitude.
The world is full of fun and wonder! Although
you can be naive at times and quite aloof to
your surroundings you know how to have good
clean fun! Most people see you as cute and very
gentle by nature and it is most likely true.
You have a great outlook on life and you try
not to let things get to you. Go you!
What type of Tea are you? {-With Anime Pictures!-}
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Cute and very gentle by nature? Right ok - someone else want to comment on these? Cause I can't quite decide if I agree or not...
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Diggin around in the grey matter
Trying to figure stuff out. It's not going well.
George makes fun of me because I put up a bunch of pictures in my room. Of them, 3 are solely of me, and one is me and a friend. He seems to think this is somehow narcissistic. And truly it might be but not for the reasons he believes. Each of those 3 pictures was taken AFTER I graduated college, May 2002. Each represents something about me...a small pictoral image of a journey of growing up.
It's funny, because some of this I'm just realizing now, and because it's like there is a key to all of this that no one else can see. Each image I'm smiling, each image most people can't see beneath the surface. But they represent such varied things.
July 2002 -A picture where I am alone...and felt alone...but I wasn't. Not really.
Spring 2003 - A picture where I am alone, and felt alone but felt that I wasn't. But I was. So desperately.
August 2004 - Not feeling quite so alone but grappling with thoughts and fears that I can barely even begin to describe to myself let alone put into words. Alone in a crowd.
I'm too in my head. I'm going to clean or play or do something. Maybe that will take the edge off.
George makes fun of me because I put up a bunch of pictures in my room. Of them, 3 are solely of me, and one is me and a friend. He seems to think this is somehow narcissistic. And truly it might be but not for the reasons he believes. Each of those 3 pictures was taken AFTER I graduated college, May 2002. Each represents something about me...a small pictoral image of a journey of growing up.
It's funny, because some of this I'm just realizing now, and because it's like there is a key to all of this that no one else can see. Each image I'm smiling, each image most people can't see beneath the surface. But they represent such varied things.
July 2002 -A picture where I am alone...and felt alone...but I wasn't. Not really.
Spring 2003 - A picture where I am alone, and felt alone but felt that I wasn't. But I was. So desperately.
August 2004 - Not feeling quite so alone but grappling with thoughts and fears that I can barely even begin to describe to myself let alone put into words. Alone in a crowd.
I'm too in my head. I'm going to clean or play or do something. Maybe that will take the edge off.
Monday, November 22, 2004
Here's to all
...the passive agressive nitwits
...the people (read: students) who won't take any personal responsibility ("Miss! He was distracting me that's why I got a 32% on the test!" No you knucklehead - you LET yourself get distracted. Honestly.)
Wait. Stop. Let's end the rant that was about to stop. I'm going to focus on the best thing that happened today. It's so small, but...
There's one kid in my class who seriously underacheived last quarter. You want to know how bad you ask me - let's leave it at it was BAD.
This quarter he has 100% on the one quiz, and a 96% on the test and he has done all his homework. Almost. We'll get to that one in a second.
Anyway, Underachieving Andy (name changed to protect the innocent) has been bopped on the head by me at least twice this quarter. Mostly because I am SO DAMN PROUD of what he's been doing so far. I berate him to the tune of "Good lord, [Underachieving Andy] what were you doing last quarter? You knucklehead!"
So today, I'm checking off homework, and the former Underachieving Andy, presently Achieving Andy, doesn't have it. I must have looked disappointed cause he actually seemed to really care what I thought of him. He was afraid of disappointing me! I don't know if you guys can appreciate how incredible a feeling that is...but lord help me that kid is fantastic.
And he knows if he misses a homework assignment again he's toast.
Ok, and on that note I'm gonna try the sleep thing. Last day tomorrow - whee!
...the people (read: students) who won't take any personal responsibility ("Miss! He was distracting me that's why I got a 32% on the test!" No you knucklehead - you LET yourself get distracted. Honestly.)
Wait. Stop. Let's end the rant that was about to stop. I'm going to focus on the best thing that happened today. It's so small, but...
There's one kid in my class who seriously underacheived last quarter. You want to know how bad you ask me - let's leave it at it was BAD.
This quarter he has 100% on the one quiz, and a 96% on the test and he has done all his homework. Almost. We'll get to that one in a second.
Anyway, Underachieving Andy (name changed to protect the innocent) has been bopped on the head by me at least twice this quarter. Mostly because I am SO DAMN PROUD of what he's been doing so far. I berate him to the tune of "Good lord, [Underachieving Andy] what were you doing last quarter? You knucklehead!"
So today, I'm checking off homework, and the former Underachieving Andy, presently Achieving Andy, doesn't have it. I must have looked disappointed cause he actually seemed to really care what I thought of him. He was afraid of disappointing me! I don't know if you guys can appreciate how incredible a feeling that is...but lord help me that kid is fantastic.
And he knows if he misses a homework assignment again he's toast.
Ok, and on that note I'm gonna try the sleep thing. Last day tomorrow - whee!
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Oops I Did it Again
...and I can't believe I just quoted Britney Spears. Another perfectly good phrase ruined by a rather annoying pop princess. Oy.
Nevertheless, I looked up and I had let just about a month go by without posting an entry. Oops indeed. I really didn't mean to do that. Just got a little busy I suppose.
I got my new baby yesterday. I don't think I ever posted it...actually I know I didn't cause I just checked the archives. Anyway - I bought one last July - and then realized I needed the left-handed version. Which really I knew from the beginning, but I let other people talk me out of it, because I couldn't explain why I knew that I needed the lefty model. In case you're interested - it turns out you can't keep the beat with your weaker hand - it needs to be your dominant hand. Heh. Who knew? Well I did, but to all you right-handed freaks out there, now you know too.
Holding it sorta wigged out Dan and Ehren. They had to play it upside down and backwards. I just laugh - now they know why I was always uncomfortable with their stuff. :)
Course I get it when I have 110 exam papers to grade. Yikes, this is going to be an interesting weekend. Oh well - at least next week is going to be super short!
I was just browsing through old archives, and realized that there was a lot more in this sucker than I remembered. I've had it for less than a year at this point, so it's kinda cool. Also that I occasionally say some kinda cool stuff.
I spent some time on my trip to SF last March. You know, I want that feeling again. So whether it's going to SF, or to LA or going somewhere, I think I'm going to have to engineer a trip sometime. Maybe February or April break? I'd love to go with friends, but to do that I'd need them to miss school and/or work. And that just bites. Grr. Somebody have a long weekend around to go down to DC? Maybe over Christmas? Karen - you and me to Cali sometime, definately.
I have, much to my roommate's annoyance discovered a new philosophy on life, based on the book: He's Just Not That Into You - ladies read this book. Men, read this book. Damnit it's a GREAT FUCKING book.
OK, I'm tired - I have more to say but more importantly papers to grade...I'll be back.
Nevertheless, I looked up and I had let just about a month go by without posting an entry. Oops indeed. I really didn't mean to do that. Just got a little busy I suppose.
I got my new baby yesterday. I don't think I ever posted it...actually I know I didn't cause I just checked the archives. Anyway - I bought one last July - and then realized I needed the left-handed version. Which really I knew from the beginning, but I let other people talk me out of it, because I couldn't explain why I knew that I needed the lefty model. In case you're interested - it turns out you can't keep the beat with your weaker hand - it needs to be your dominant hand. Heh. Who knew? Well I did, but to all you right-handed freaks out there, now you know too.
Holding it sorta wigged out Dan and Ehren. They had to play it upside down and backwards. I just laugh - now they know why I was always uncomfortable with their stuff. :)
Course I get it when I have 110 exam papers to grade. Yikes, this is going to be an interesting weekend. Oh well - at least next week is going to be super short!
I was just browsing through old archives, and realized that there was a lot more in this sucker than I remembered. I've had it for less than a year at this point, so it's kinda cool. Also that I occasionally say some kinda cool stuff.
I spent some time on my trip to SF last March. You know, I want that feeling again. So whether it's going to SF, or to LA or going somewhere, I think I'm going to have to engineer a trip sometime. Maybe February or April break? I'd love to go with friends, but to do that I'd need them to miss school and/or work. And that just bites. Grr. Somebody have a long weekend around to go down to DC? Maybe over Christmas? Karen - you and me to Cali sometime, definately.
I have, much to my roommate's annoyance discovered a new philosophy on life, based on the book: He's Just Not That Into You - ladies read this book. Men, read this book. Damnit it's a GREAT FUCKING book.
OK, I'm tired - I have more to say but more importantly papers to grade...I'll be back.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
The Sentiment Applies
One of my favorite Muppet songs. Find the song (or have me send it to you) if you haven't heard it, but the key part is here...I'm sitting here drinking a beer and shaking my head at the fact that I seem to be empathizing with a frog and dog.
Here's the key lyric:
Here's the key lyric:
Rowlf (talking about keeping his life simple and
relationship free): Yep. I finish work, go home, read a book, have a couple of beers, take myself for a walk and go to
bed.
Kermit: Nice and simple.
Rowlf: Stay away from women. That's my motto.
Kermit: But I can't.
Rowlf: Neither can I. That's my trouble...
Substitute "men" for "women" and I'm all set. Heh. See this is why I love the Muppets - they resonate at any age!
Night kids.
Monday, October 25, 2004
11 Hour Days Suck...
...unless of course they are 11+ hour days in which case they reach levels which can only be described by Dante. In the Inferno.
I just want to know how I, a slacker really, ended up the typical workaholic. Seriously. I didn't see this coming and I doubt anyone else did.
I do love my job...I just wouldn't mind if maybe there was a tiny bit less of it. I'm just sayin' here.
First formal observation this week so I'm majorly in overdrive here. I want to blow the VP's socks off. Truly. So, 11+ hour days here I come. It's 6pm, and I think I'm gonna nap and then get up and do yet more work.
The next person who tells me teacher's are either (a) overpaid or (b) shouldn't complain cause they get summers off or even (c) are paid quite enough for what they do is gonna be the recipient of a well-deserved bloody nose.
*sighs* Damn, I need a life.
Outside of work that is.
I just want to know how I, a slacker really, ended up the typical workaholic. Seriously. I didn't see this coming and I doubt anyone else did.
I do love my job...I just wouldn't mind if maybe there was a tiny bit less of it. I'm just sayin' here.
First formal observation this week so I'm majorly in overdrive here. I want to blow the VP's socks off. Truly. So, 11+ hour days here I come. It's 6pm, and I think I'm gonna nap and then get up and do yet more work.
The next person who tells me teacher's are either (a) overpaid or (b) shouldn't complain cause they get summers off or even (c) are paid quite enough for what they do is gonna be the recipient of a well-deserved bloody nose.
*sighs* Damn, I need a life.
Outside of work that is.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Icing the Palms and Lovin' it...
New game. George bought "Donkey Konga." It comes with conga drums. 10 minutes into playing it we decided that we needed to call Ehren. 5 min after he played it, he went out and bought his own copy.
Dear god in heaven. IT ROCKED OUT. George is still in the other room playing. I am icing down my hands becuase they are lobster red - but damn it was fun.
Heh. You must see this game at some point soon-ish.
OK - more work to be done but wanted to point that little bit out.
Dear god in heaven. IT ROCKED OUT. George is still in the other room playing. I am icing down my hands becuase they are lobster red - but damn it was fun.
Heh. You must see this game at some point soon-ish.
OK - more work to be done but wanted to point that little bit out.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Still here, just sleeping...
It's been 3.5 weeks since I last posted.
Oops.
I really didn't mean to let that much time pass...it's just everytime I had something to say I was too tired to say it and opted for going to bed or staring at the TV with a blank expression on my face instead. Like I said, my IQ drops about 75-100 points at 2:10 every day. It's somewhat amusing. And sad. Very sad.
Interesting happenings in my life? Most people have been talking to me...so you know about the job sitch. That's going well - details you can get from me in person of course. Ups and downs, but I'm still happy. Well, happy with some light showers of annoyance. But again, that's expected in this profession.
Spent yesterday chilling out with Ehren - Applefest (got a cool ring!), Coldstone (ran into Martina of all the odd places to run into her) where I experience peanut butter chocolatey goodness, Barnes and Noble where I got a book I will be talking about in a moment AND ran into Caro! Then back here to watch "A Time to Kill", dinner at Chili's with Dan and Ehren to see Ali, and then back here to finish the movie and catch the last bit of the "Growing Pains" 2nd reunion movie.
Right - so the book is Jon Stewart's book America (the Book): A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction. The forward is written by Thomas "T.J." Jefferson.
This book is bloody hilarious. Understand me? HILARIOUS.
First of all, it's set up as a high school textbook, right down to that stamp in the inside. Except when you look closer you notice that, hmm, there's something a tiny bit different about it. It's subtle and cute.
The rest of the book...really I can't describe it well enough - get thee to a book store and flip through a copy. It's entirely worth it. I do love the pull out poster showing the Shadow government hierarchy, and the end of chapter review questions and class activities are enough to keep Ehren, me, and Leila (who stopped by after work) in hysterics for a good long while. People - get this book.
At some point I need to order He’s Just Not That Into You: The No Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys. A friend reccomended it and it looks amazingly funny - unfortunately it's sold out at Barnes and Noble...however, if anyone already has a copy that I can borrow I'd appreciate it. My friend is taking her copy, highlighting and tabbing it. She feels it has intense value. Why didn't he call? He's just not that into you. Why hasn't he remembered anything of importance in your life? He's just not that into you. This is good advice ladies. I'm just sayin'.
Finally watched "A Time to Kill." Ehren wanted to see it so I swallowed my fears, sucked it up and watched it. The background here is that I enjoy John Grisham's books, and the movies based on his books. I have wanted to watch this movie for awhile. However, one thing has prevented me from watching this particular movie. When it came out the review made it clear that there is a very graphically portrayed rape of a 10-year old girl in the first few minutes of the movie. I have intense trouble watching rape scenes no matter what the circumstances but I knew watching that particular scene would be worse than most.
It was.
Ehren realized at some point that I was not doing to well with it. But I'll also say this much - the movie was excellent and I would reccomend it to anyone. It's a pretty powerful movie - and it's worth it. So, watch it.
And that was my day. It was a good day. And now I have to go and do a ton of work, including reading over 115 lab reports. Yikes.
Russell out.
Oops.
I really didn't mean to let that much time pass...it's just everytime I had something to say I was too tired to say it and opted for going to bed or staring at the TV with a blank expression on my face instead. Like I said, my IQ drops about 75-100 points at 2:10 every day. It's somewhat amusing. And sad. Very sad.
Interesting happenings in my life? Most people have been talking to me...so you know about the job sitch. That's going well - details you can get from me in person of course. Ups and downs, but I'm still happy. Well, happy with some light showers of annoyance. But again, that's expected in this profession.
Spent yesterday chilling out with Ehren - Applefest (got a cool ring!), Coldstone (ran into Martina of all the odd places to run into her) where I experience peanut butter chocolatey goodness, Barnes and Noble where I got a book I will be talking about in a moment AND ran into Caro! Then back here to watch "A Time to Kill", dinner at Chili's with Dan and Ehren to see Ali, and then back here to finish the movie and catch the last bit of the "Growing Pains" 2nd reunion movie.
Right - so the book is Jon Stewart's book America (the Book): A Citizen's Guide to Democracy Inaction. The forward is written by Thomas "T.J." Jefferson.
This book is bloody hilarious. Understand me? HILARIOUS.
First of all, it's set up as a high school textbook, right down to that stamp in the inside. Except when you look closer you notice that, hmm, there's something a tiny bit different about it. It's subtle and cute.
The rest of the book...really I can't describe it well enough - get thee to a book store and flip through a copy. It's entirely worth it. I do love the pull out poster showing the Shadow government hierarchy, and the end of chapter review questions and class activities are enough to keep Ehren, me, and Leila (who stopped by after work) in hysterics for a good long while. People - get this book.
At some point I need to order He’s Just Not That Into You: The No Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys. A friend reccomended it and it looks amazingly funny - unfortunately it's sold out at Barnes and Noble...however, if anyone already has a copy that I can borrow I'd appreciate it. My friend is taking her copy, highlighting and tabbing it. She feels it has intense value. Why didn't he call? He's just not that into you. Why hasn't he remembered anything of importance in your life? He's just not that into you. This is good advice ladies. I'm just sayin'.
Finally watched "A Time to Kill." Ehren wanted to see it so I swallowed my fears, sucked it up and watched it. The background here is that I enjoy John Grisham's books, and the movies based on his books. I have wanted to watch this movie for awhile. However, one thing has prevented me from watching this particular movie. When it came out the review made it clear that there is a very graphically portrayed rape of a 10-year old girl in the first few minutes of the movie. I have intense trouble watching rape scenes no matter what the circumstances but I knew watching that particular scene would be worse than most.
It was.
Ehren realized at some point that I was not doing to well with it. But I'll also say this much - the movie was excellent and I would reccomend it to anyone. It's a pretty powerful movie - and it's worth it. So, watch it.
And that was my day. It was a good day. And now I have to go and do a ton of work, including reading over 115 lab reports. Yikes.
Russell out.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
7:35, the weeks sucks, but alcohol doens't
It's not even 8pm. I've been trashed since 6pm. It's a school night.
At least it took me a month to get to the point where I'm drinking lots on a school night. So much weird stuff going on in my head, but I gotta say I'm not anywhere near drunk enough to actually talk about it. Suffice to say - my life is odd and I'm not convinced good.
I enjoy my job...but some of it is driving me nuts. Suprisingly I'm turning into a bit of a workaholic. Which is totally unexpected cause during student teaching I couldn't get out of there soon enough. I still want to get out of there...but I feel good about getting stuff done. Of course I'm wicked behind in grading. Ridiculosly behind. It's bad.
I should stop typing now, before I really lose it. Besides I should go to sleep soon. That would be good.
:) Night all!
PS - yay vanilla vodka!
At least it took me a month to get to the point where I'm drinking lots on a school night. So much weird stuff going on in my head, but I gotta say I'm not anywhere near drunk enough to actually talk about it. Suffice to say - my life is odd and I'm not convinced good.
I enjoy my job...but some of it is driving me nuts. Suprisingly I'm turning into a bit of a workaholic. Which is totally unexpected cause during student teaching I couldn't get out of there soon enough. I still want to get out of there...but I feel good about getting stuff done. Of course I'm wicked behind in grading. Ridiculosly behind. It's bad.
I should stop typing now, before I really lose it. Besides I should go to sleep soon. That would be good.
:) Night all!
PS - yay vanilla vodka!
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Basically, I couldn't sleep if I wanted to
So today has consisted of, in order, caffiene mixed with chocolate, alcohol, chocolate, and more sugar caffiene mixtures. I am not even anywhere near the state of sleep, which sucks cause I'm too wired to grade, or write, or do anything useful that I should be doing or that, in the case of writing some letters, that I want to do.
Instead my heart is racing, and my mind is going about a million times faster than that. The roommate isn't around, and no one is on line (reasonable since it's almost 2 am) so I can't even talk to anyone about what's on my mind.
Grrrr. Stupid caffiene. Grrrrr.
This weekend, so far, has been super keen. Was up in NH visiting with Ehren and his 'rents. Who are just super people so that was a lot of fun. Totally worth pushing back a dentist's appointment for. It rocked. Much fun was had by all, and I am now the owner of a new Nalgene bottle. I'm hoping this means, via a process of alternating, that I will wash them out more often. Yep. That should work.
It's bright pink too. So that's cool. Betcha the kids freak out. Just watch - I know 'em well!
OK, gonna try sleeping. I am, afterall, exhausted.
Instead my heart is racing, and my mind is going about a million times faster than that. The roommate isn't around, and no one is on line (reasonable since it's almost 2 am) so I can't even talk to anyone about what's on my mind.
Grrrr. Stupid caffiene. Grrrrr.
This weekend, so far, has been super keen. Was up in NH visiting with Ehren and his 'rents. Who are just super people so that was a lot of fun. Totally worth pushing back a dentist's appointment for. It rocked. Much fun was had by all, and I am now the owner of a new Nalgene bottle. I'm hoping this means, via a process of alternating, that I will wash them out more often. Yep. That should work.
It's bright pink too. So that's cool. Betcha the kids freak out. Just watch - I know 'em well!
OK, gonna try sleeping. I am, afterall, exhausted.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Chilling Out & Recuperating
Yup. Recovering from my bout with the cold that the kids gave me. If I ever manage to figure out which one of the kids got me sick, I'm going to be failing that particular child. Seriously. I ended up taking Thursday as a sick day which pissed me off incredibly. I hate taking time off in the middle of the week - it makes me feel all that much more disconnected when I come back to school. Which it did again. And I felt like I was running away. But, it also turned out to be the smartest thing I could have done - 'cause I certainly felt a bit better on Friday when I went back.
Which was good cause I was at school til a little after 5:30 pm. If I get one more person telling me that teacher's have it easy I'm going to attack them with a red pen and the fetal pigs we were dissecting this week. Indeed!
Chilling out at Ehren's for now, going to bake some of the cookies he liked that I made for the department picnic. Yummy!!
Singing in the Rain was on TV tonight. How cool? Can I reiterate that I want, nay, need, a man with the charm and wit of Gene Kelly. And the body of Hugh Jackman. Actually, just a nice mesh of those two men would keep me happy. Very happy. Forever happy.
You get the sense that my thoughts are jumping around faster than the Energizer Bunny on speed? Yeah...go figure.
What else is going on? Had a religious experience today, but not really wanting to talk about it just yet...I will eventually...but for now I need to process what happened.
I find my mind working in a similar way now that it did a couple years ago when I wrote some rather interesting reflections. Except that I'm happier on the surface now than I was then. I'm not sure how deep that happiness runs. Well that's not entirely true - for the most part I know that I'm the happiest I've been lately than I've been in years. But, to some extent that happiness feels a bit like a delusion. I'm not sure why, though it is not out of the realm of possibilities that I'm just not used to feeling ok. I think part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop!
I do know that something is missing right now. I don't know what it is, because the answer I suspect is deeper than the obvious, but something is not right. Something I need in my life isn't here...but I don't even have a notion as to what it is. Is that weird? I don't know.
I guess there really isn't much I can do now, except trust that it will be revealed to me in time. Cause you all just know I'm the world's most patient person. Really now. :)
Ok, time to go bake cookies. Night all!
Which was good cause I was at school til a little after 5:30 pm. If I get one more person telling me that teacher's have it easy I'm going to attack them with a red pen and the fetal pigs we were dissecting this week. Indeed!
Chilling out at Ehren's for now, going to bake some of the cookies he liked that I made for the department picnic. Yummy!!
Singing in the Rain was on TV tonight. How cool? Can I reiterate that I want, nay, need, a man with the charm and wit of Gene Kelly. And the body of Hugh Jackman. Actually, just a nice mesh of those two men would keep me happy. Very happy. Forever happy.
You get the sense that my thoughts are jumping around faster than the Energizer Bunny on speed? Yeah...go figure.
What else is going on? Had a religious experience today, but not really wanting to talk about it just yet...I will eventually...but for now I need to process what happened.
I find my mind working in a similar way now that it did a couple years ago when I wrote some rather interesting reflections. Except that I'm happier on the surface now than I was then. I'm not sure how deep that happiness runs. Well that's not entirely true - for the most part I know that I'm the happiest I've been lately than I've been in years. But, to some extent that happiness feels a bit like a delusion. I'm not sure why, though it is not out of the realm of possibilities that I'm just not used to feeling ok. I think part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop!
I do know that something is missing right now. I don't know what it is, because the answer I suspect is deeper than the obvious, but something is not right. Something I need in my life isn't here...but I don't even have a notion as to what it is. Is that weird? I don't know.
I guess there really isn't much I can do now, except trust that it will be revealed to me in time. Cause you all just know I'm the world's most patient person. Really now. :)
Ok, time to go bake cookies. Night all!
Monday, September 13, 2004
Apologies All Around ~or~ Who Loves Ya Baby?
Yes. I haven't posted in awhile. Not a real post certainly. And yes, I am very very sorry. But I do in fact have a good excuse...I've been exhausted and going to bed at like 9pm every night. And that's only been 'cause I've been literally FORCING myself to stay up that late.
This whole "real" job thing is taking it out of me. The kids are great - but they are taking it out of me. This week is gonna be the longest one yet, literally and figuratively so we'll see.
A word of warning - I am on NyQuil...or rather the WalMart version of NyQuil. So you are entering a drugged up zone. Don't say I didn't warn you.
George is sicker, I am sick. I stopped by WalMart on the way home to get drugs. Walked out with Vick VapoRub (TM) , Equate versions of Tylenol Cold, DayQuil, Luden's throat drops, and the his and hers pack of NyQuil. I swear to you I think George just about fell to his feet when he saw the 2 bottles of NyQuil I bought. It was sweet, in that I'm your fucking dealer bitch do what I say sort of way.
Anyway. Other news? Work is going well, I enjoy it a lot. Kudos to Ehren for helping me keep sane on the weekends.
Went to the staff party at the department head's place in Massachusetts last weekend. It rocked - took Ehren since George was a bit unavailable due to some heavy consumption of adult beverages at the football game earlier. Got to my co-workers' children... adorable all of them.
Loved holding the 7month old baby...got what a cutie. I wish some of my older friends would have kids that I could spoil (and hand back at the end of the day). Babies are fun when they aren't your own!
I do have more to write...but that medication is kicking in and I can barely keep my eyes open...I'm losing coherency fast. And I mean REALLY fast.
Leave love, remind me that I have people out there who love me! And who love me for me, not because I control their grades and by extension their lives...heh heh heh...
Russell Out.
This whole "real" job thing is taking it out of me. The kids are great - but they are taking it out of me. This week is gonna be the longest one yet, literally and figuratively so we'll see.
A word of warning - I am on NyQuil...or rather the WalMart version of NyQuil. So you are entering a drugged up zone. Don't say I didn't warn you.
George is sicker, I am sick. I stopped by WalMart on the way home to get drugs. Walked out with Vick VapoRub (TM) , Equate versions of Tylenol Cold, DayQuil, Luden's throat drops, and the his and hers pack of NyQuil. I swear to you I think George just about fell to his feet when he saw the 2 bottles of NyQuil I bought. It was sweet, in that I'm your fucking dealer bitch do what I say sort of way.
Anyway. Other news? Work is going well, I enjoy it a lot. Kudos to Ehren for helping me keep sane on the weekends.
Went to the staff party at the department head's place in Massachusetts last weekend. It rocked - took Ehren since George was a bit unavailable due to some heavy consumption of adult beverages at the football game earlier. Got to my co-workers' children... adorable all of them.
Loved holding the 7month old baby...got what a cutie. I wish some of my older friends would have kids that I could spoil (and hand back at the end of the day). Babies are fun when they aren't your own!
I do have more to write...but that medication is kicking in and I can barely keep my eyes open...I'm losing coherency fast. And I mean REALLY fast.
Leave love, remind me that I have people out there who love me! And who love me for me, not because I control their grades and by extension their lives...heh heh heh...
Russell Out.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
A Question of Some Import
Mood/feelings: Stressed, scared, nervous, and pretty convinced of general failure heading my way. I can deal with that though.
How?
By totally ignoring the problems and fixating on something that doesn't really matter at all!!!!
So...the question of no importance whatsoever, drumroll please...
should I stick up a photograph in my profile? Use the comments to let me know what you think, voting ends...at some point.
Right. Maybe I should go to bed?
How?
By totally ignoring the problems and fixating on something that doesn't really matter at all!!!!
So...the question of no importance whatsoever, drumroll please...
should I stick up a photograph in my profile? Use the comments to let me know what you think, voting ends...at some point.
Right. Maybe I should go to bed?
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Please Disregard Previous Post...
Right. Don't worry about the last post - some stuff was going on, it was dealt with in a timely and mature fashion, and if you are going to die unless you know what happened you'll just have to ask me. And whether or not I explain will give you a good idea as to how key I feel your continued existance is. :-D
I'm trying to type carefully - I just got my first ever manicure. I think I might be hooked. I also think I might need to go try the pedicure thing at some point, cause this is a lot of fun!
Party here last night was phenomenal. We had a solid mix of G's friends, plus my high school AND college friends. The food was spectacular, the people were fabulous...and I flat out felt adorably sexy. Which is unusual for me. Must be the jeans...
So much went on last night, and frankly it would take forever to type it in, and I don't have that kind of patience *grins* If you weren't there, silly you for not showing up! But I did get to meet new people and got some of my friends to interact who'd never met before. Erika particularly cracked me up in her greeting to Ehren. She's G's new best friend I think...first of all she's working at Starbucks, so he's going to be worshipping her, and when I told him of her greeting to Ehren, he cracked up and said "I think I like her even more..."
Oh yeah, he and Ralphie got along pretty well too.
Annie showed up - hadn't seen her in ages, Ehren, Dan and Sam were playing guitar and bass and all manner of fun things. Everything rocked out...and I got a chance to dance and meet new people, so cool.
Also, had lunch with Bill and Brian today, hadn't seen either of them in ages and that was beyond sweet, just catch up and showed them the apartment. :) All in all it's been fun
Think it's just about nap time for me though - going to the reunion and need to get some rest before I go glam up. Kinda hope it stops raining before I have to go outside, cause it would really REALLY suck if I got all pretty and then had the rain ruin everything!
Naps are fun... :) Later!
I'm trying to type carefully - I just got my first ever manicure. I think I might be hooked. I also think I might need to go try the pedicure thing at some point, cause this is a lot of fun!
Party here last night was phenomenal. We had a solid mix of G's friends, plus my high school AND college friends. The food was spectacular, the people were fabulous...and I flat out felt adorably sexy. Which is unusual for me. Must be the jeans...
So much went on last night, and frankly it would take forever to type it in, and I don't have that kind of patience *grins* If you weren't there, silly you for not showing up! But I did get to meet new people and got some of my friends to interact who'd never met before. Erika particularly cracked me up in her greeting to Ehren. She's G's new best friend I think...first of all she's working at Starbucks, so he's going to be worshipping her, and when I told him of her greeting to Ehren, he cracked up and said "I think I like her even more..."
Oh yeah, he and Ralphie got along pretty well too.
Annie showed up - hadn't seen her in ages, Ehren, Dan and Sam were playing guitar and bass and all manner of fun things. Everything rocked out...and I got a chance to dance and meet new people, so cool.
Also, had lunch with Bill and Brian today, hadn't seen either of them in ages and that was beyond sweet, just catch up and showed them the apartment. :) All in all it's been fun
Think it's just about nap time for me though - going to the reunion and need to get some rest before I go glam up. Kinda hope it stops raining before I have to go outside, cause it would really REALLY suck if I got all pretty and then had the rain ruin everything!
Naps are fun... :) Later!
Thursday, August 19, 2004
New colors
Yeah, I know I changed the background again. Only this time didn't really do anything except change the coloring. What can I say? I got bored with the old color scheme.
Yeah this sounds trivial. Why? Cause I'm sick and tired of being the strong one. The reasonable one. Fuck that. What I wouldn't give just to fy off the handle, a good rip roaring pissed off don't fuck with me temper tantrum. Why is it so hard? Why do friends always end up being the ones who twist the knife? And why can't I just let it go?!
Maybe things will look better in the morning. God I hope so. Cause I'm gonna cry when I go to sleep tonight, and I really don't want to.
Damnit. DAMNIT.
Just...fuck it.
Good night.
Yeah this sounds trivial. Why? Cause I'm sick and tired of being the strong one. The reasonable one. Fuck that. What I wouldn't give just to fy off the handle, a good rip roaring pissed off don't fuck with me temper tantrum. Why is it so hard? Why do friends always end up being the ones who twist the knife? And why can't I just let it go?!
Maybe things will look better in the morning. God I hope so. Cause I'm gonna cry when I go to sleep tonight, and I really don't want to.
Damnit. DAMNIT.
Just...fuck it.
Good night.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Place still looks like a disaster...
I am moved in more or less. Place still looks unfinished but we're getting there slowly. I have all the furniture that is required so I'm counting that on the positive side. There is so much going on...and nothing really noteworthy or blog-able. Sorry.
I did just want to post to say 'sup and all. I am currently searching through boxes looking for things...but at least i'm starting to get a good idea of WHERE to look...baby steps and all that.
Oh hell...if you really want to know what's going on in my life, talk to me! For the moment, that's all I've got! :)
Talk later,
me.
I did just want to post to say 'sup and all. I am currently searching through boxes looking for things...but at least i'm starting to get a good idea of WHERE to look...baby steps and all that.
Oh hell...if you really want to know what's going on in my life, talk to me! For the moment, that's all I've got! :)
Talk later,
me.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
More Quizzes Before I Disapper for the Next Few Days
Take the quiz: "Which American City Are You?"
Boston
You are under-world power and old-world tradition. You get the job done and it's better if nobody asks how.
Boston, yep. Go Red Sox! Heh. And my friends have known for years not to ask questions about my methods of execution.
You're Donna!
Which That 70's Show Character are You?
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A tall fiery redhead...OK, it's the second time a quiz has pegged me as having red hair...someone trying to tell me something?? Sure I get teased about my height...tall though? Oh to dream...
MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift
What does your birth month say about you?
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Systematic? Me?? Nah...
Boston
You are under-world power and old-world tradition. You get the job done and it's better if nobody asks how.
Boston, yep. Go Red Sox! Heh. And my friends have known for years not to ask questions about my methods of execution.
You're Donna!
Which That 70's Show Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
A tall fiery redhead...OK, it's the second time a quiz has pegged me as having red hair...someone trying to tell me something?? Sure I get teased about my height...tall though? Oh to dream...
MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift
What does your birth month say about you?
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Systematic? Me?? Nah...
Friday, July 30, 2004
A Quickie
Like the title says - this is gonna be fast and furious. I am moving tomorrow, which is to say I get the keys to the new place, though I am not quite sure I'm going to be sleeping there tomorrow night. Actually, considering I still need to get a bed and a shower curtain, I'm thinking spending the night there, not so much on ye olde agenda. But, we'll see.
Turns out after being bored to tears, tomorrow I have more invitations than I know what to do with. Bloody hell. Hate it when that happens.
Ehren, you had best be showing up...hang over or no hang over!
I think I scared the crap out of Leila tonight...I went to my "dark" place. 'Cept it wasn't that dark, which is good in the sense that I got out before I was too far in, but bad in the sense that I think Leila got scared too quickly...I wonder how she's gonna react when I really melt down one of these days.
Leila - thanks for talking to me tho. It's precisely what I needed to keep myself in check. I'm much better now, I swear. We'll talk more about it later - just know you handled it the right way.
Ok, so I'm gonna be not so much on IM until August 4th when the internet/cable/phone services are hooked up. So if y'all want to talk, use the bloody phone! :)
Much love to all, and to all a good night.
Turns out after being bored to tears, tomorrow I have more invitations than I know what to do with. Bloody hell. Hate it when that happens.
Ehren, you had best be showing up...hang over or no hang over!
I think I scared the crap out of Leila tonight...I went to my "dark" place. 'Cept it wasn't that dark, which is good in the sense that I got out before I was too far in, but bad in the sense that I think Leila got scared too quickly...I wonder how she's gonna react when I really melt down one of these days.
Leila - thanks for talking to me tho. It's precisely what I needed to keep myself in check. I'm much better now, I swear. We'll talk more about it later - just know you handled it the right way.
Ok, so I'm gonna be not so much on IM until August 4th when the internet/cable/phone services are hooked up. So if y'all want to talk, use the bloody phone! :)
Much love to all, and to all a good night.